ME DAYS

To watch every one of my boys find themselves is a gift given that I open right away~ I tear off the bow, no time to save it and watch the contents jump out...

And I get these gifts on auto ship~ every day if I watch for them. My mind has these pretty packages stacked up~ they are spilling out if my closet onto the floor~ in all dimensions each with a one of a kind tie~ big gross grain rainbow ribbons, bakers twine with sweet stripes, organic cotton thread so thin but unbreakable. Some were quick ~ tied with scraps~ newspaper bows, a Target plastic bag with crunchy loops, the belt that I took off a cheap dress that has no other purpose. All a mosaic of Love. To be present~ the most valued gift I give myself.

Gratitude

Clean public bathrooms... You know~ after the 3rd trip in 30 minutes I have them mapped out to jet to!

Strangers that grin & laugh beside me watching my boys

Apple customer service ~ yes, I ask the "duh" questions

Colossians 1:10 NKJV

That you may walk worthy of The Lord, fully pleasing Him, being fruitful in every good work and increasing in the knowledge of God.

BABY

fIve GoOd THinGs

1. sleep
2. sleep
3. sleep
4. sleep
5. sleep

ciao~alicia

NASHER JAMES

I've been thinking about this post for days... what could I say about this last week? I am still a little lack for words... I am amazed... I am blessed... I'm still laughing at how his birth unfolded... I have loved seeing the love of my life with his 4 sons~ pure sweetness... Nasher is just how I thought he would be... calm, sweet, easy~ like he was in the womb~ it was just my body that made it tough... he is amazingly beautiful with the longest eyelashes I have ever seen... his skin & hair are lighter than all the other boys, his fingers and toes are also so long, his cry so innocent it's almost calming. He loved hearing Daddy playing his guitar to him the other night and well, I think I am in a little piece of nirvana... more pics to come... there are 400 in my camera right now & taking more every day!

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Five Good Things

1. my amazing hubby who cooked, cleaned, took care of me and played baseball every day with the boys this week~ so grateful we had him for a week~ he's delicious
2. 3 little big brothers with adoring looks on their faces
3. the moment... oh to cherish each one and not be in a hurry
4. warm showers... need I say more?
5. a house full of little feet and little laughs

ciao~alicia

AFTER MIDNIGHT

so... i am 39 weeks preggos and up most nights... not that far from the ordinary for this mama but it's different when you are uncomfy and waiting for those contractions to send you into the hospital... so... i think i'll look as good as i can when i get there... my toes are painted thanks to my sister~ i can't reach them... now the nails~ done!

i'm trying to enjoy feeling him move in these last days~ this is the last pregnancy

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i should pack the diaper bag but all the little stuff is too presh to look at & there is a part of me that is sad this is the last ritual to be done for the last baby...

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the last baby?...

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i can't imagine having any more... i don't think my body would condone another round & i feel like 4 is a good number... but everything feels so last...

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like when you finish a good book and close it ~ your life perspective changed forever... sad that it's over but love the ending...

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baby nasher... the last one... time for a new novel...

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Five Good Things

1. little newborn onesies... 5 to 8 lbs... presh
2. big brothers
3. His divine plan for this new life
4. bland food... soon no more heartburn!
5. pretty polish

ciao~alicia