ME DAYS

To watch every one of my boys find themselves is a gift given that I open right away~ I tear off the bow, no time to save it and watch the contents jump out...

And I get these gifts on auto ship~ every day if I watch for them. My mind has these pretty packages stacked up~ they are spilling out if my closet onto the floor~ in all dimensions each with a one of a kind tie~ big gross grain rainbow ribbons, bakers twine with sweet stripes, organic cotton thread so thin but unbreakable. Some were quick ~ tied with scraps~ newspaper bows, a Target plastic bag with crunchy loops, the belt that I took off a cheap dress that has no other purpose. All a mosaic of Love. To be present~ the most valued gift I give myself.

Gratitude

Clean public bathrooms... You know~ after the 3rd trip in 30 minutes I have them mapped out to jet to!

Strangers that grin & laugh beside me watching my boys

Apple customer service ~ yes, I ask the "duh" questions

Colossians 1:10 NKJV

That you may walk worthy of The Lord, fully pleasing Him, being fruitful in every good work and increasing in the knowledge of God.

WAITING FOR?

I haven't blogged in forever... I've thought about blog posts ~ probably hundreds of them. What was I waiting for? A chic blog design? To be a master photographer? To attain some level of Mom wisdom? For all my devices to be synced? Yep... Waiting for it to be perfect... Oh my what does that even mean? Perfectionism = No Producing... Missed memories... Waste.
No more... My computer is outdated; I have no idea how to work this Blogger app on my iPad and now I just don't care. Time is passing, I woke up. In the flaws there is unmistakable beauty; in my humanness there are answers.
Little Nasher is 2... He's talking in sentences. He's asking questions. He tells me he loves me when I leave. He loves to cook. He's saying NO ~ a lot. Im ordering another spanker for my purse~ thank you Meaghan. Christopher's shoes are half a size from me throwing them on to get the mail~ my heel barely hanging off the edge of his flip flop. I guess I should wear them to check the mail~ I love to be anywhere he has touched. He's going to need braces~ I can't wait to tell him how handsome he looks in them. Nate has found his niche~ he's really a ninja & is writing comics telling of all sorts of adventures with the sea and the jungle. I think he would have a pet jaguar if I could pull that one off. He takes care of a mating pair of lizards that live on our porch. I'm sure they stick around just for him. He grins every time we serve the honey. "Nature Nate" honey is the best that will ever touch your lips. Cooper makes silly videos with tape mustaches & silly voices. His script all original~ he is JOY. He serves & serves~ always putting himself last. He looks like me... I so love that kid.
Instead of talking about what was I dream of what is to come. I feel spring... I go barefoot more~ now high heels are kind of a pain. What??? Yes, the Shoe Queen sees options. Most of the time I have an inch of grey roots; it only bothers me if my hormones are out of whack or I loose focus of why I am here. I'm actually amazed at the white hairs~ they are beautiful~ they are wise~ they are authentic. Don't get me wrong... in moments they make me feel 80 years old. Then I look around & 80 is gorgeous.

Gratitude

Hubs grilled steaks~ we never go out for a steak~ his tops any 5 star spot
Nates gentle reminder when I'm upset~ "give it to God" ~ did I really say that? Babe Wisdom
iPhone camera~ I take about 1600 pics a month